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the_Angled_Angel
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Name: Cow
Birthday: 11/25/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: Caffeine...err...I'm only slightly addicted to coffee...especially STARBUCKS!!! Wearing fuzzy socks, Country Line Dancing (HAHA!!!), hating English....or wait I mean loving English, pictures *sniff sniff*...my poor walls are still picture-less, not caring...cellos rock!!!
Expertise: Sleeping...
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AIM:  slashlilystar
Member Since:
5/2/2003
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| The more I think about things, the more I realize that almost anything philosophical that you wish to say, has already be said by someone before you. It just so happens that by the time you wish to pursue and say anything, you've over come you state of naïvety, and have finally experienced enough of the world to realize what others have already come to know.
I think that the world is a harsh, genuinely evil place that shapes society. In today's day and age, the world has cultivated people to the extent that they must either harden towards the world, changing to maintain their mental strength, or be super nice and get walked on and abused for the rest of their life. Society has cultivated people to be tough, stopping at nothing, and pursing their dreams no matter what the cost. It's a cruel world, leading me to ask is it better for us to become meaner by growing a thicker shell, guarding ourselves or to remain overly nice and kind while being trampled on? I think our focus has become misaligned as people strive to do things simply to maintain or create an image, not bothering to be true and genuine. They aren't happy, but in this society where pills and caffeine can be see as the answer to anything, what's the point of striving to make yourself happy, when you can have other people or things do that for you.
I guess then the next question is where does happiness truly lie? Our lives have become so busy that we look to the the world of the drive-thru. Our focus has become misaligned. We want everything, and we want it now. We can't afford the time, nor do we wish to endure the pain, to actually show our true feelings and emotions, so when something goes wrong, we look for a quick fix. We are no longer strive for integrity, but rather are searching to enhance our image. We've gone so astray and become so out of whack that we don't know where to turn, nor do we really have anything to revert back to. Maybe one day we'll wise up and realize that happiness can't come with out the bad and that with out pain, suffering and sorrow, happiness would lose its meaning and luster. Everything is relative.
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| I feel like such a girl today...well, actually I've kind of felt like one the entire weekend...I just feel like I want to break down and cry and keep finding myself fighting back tears...and surprise, surprise, I have no real reason for it...ARG!!!!!!!!!!!!!...maybe I'll just go to bed...I'm so restless... | | |
| You know, some days you just get sick of things being the way that they are and you crave something different. I mean, I know that being normal can be quite boring and what not, but seriously, every once in awhile, it would be amazing to just have a normal day or one that was at least approaching normal. Cause seriously, I love my friends to death, but it would be awesome to just meet some new people or something...some days I just almost feel trapped, knowing that today was today, and tomorrow I'm going to wake up, and nothing's really going to change, it will be the same old routine. Lately, I've just felt myself getting really frustrated, really really really frustrated. Well, that and feeling quite antisocial and starting to pull away...such is life. | | |
| Some days, you just stop and question yourself. Like you thought you finally got everything together, and then something seems slightly askew. It's not like anything is terribly wrong and not like looking from the bottom up, but it still just doesn't feel right. It's almost like stopping and questioning everything, everything you've taken for granted, your characteristics, your flaws...rather unproductive, but yet there's still that feeling of unanswered unrest, the edge, that sense of uneasiness, that feeling that maybe something good can come out of it. You can't put your finger on it, yet it's there all the same, gnawing away...it's almost like a feeling of inner disappointment, knowing that you've failed at meeting up to what you feel your own expectations should be. It's like realizing that you've let others down and seeing their response and questioning it, feeling bad for it, and watching their response and seeing how you've dropped the ball. Or in some cases is it simply a response to the circumstances and the judgment call being made on the spot, sometimes seeming cold?...there's been quite a change, most of which I thought was for the better; however, now, I'm not quite so sure about all of it...leaving me to question which is better? frail and concerned or stronger and guarded?... | | |
| Rain Rain, go away, come again another day...you know, if it's gonna be at least somewhat cool out, the least it could do is snow? but then again it would be the first snow of the year and so everyone would freak out and drive like a moron, but oh well! that would see like an ok deal to me. Anyways, it's kind of nice to be on winter break and not have any classes or anything to go to and not really have any stress looming about, but I kind of miss not being at school and being able to just walk a little ways to go bug people. And I have nothing really of importance to say other than if you knew me last year and compared me to now, you'd know that I'm oh soooo much happier than I was, it's kinda cool. Oh, and...
Happy Holidays!
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